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Sarah. 20. Sophomore at UC Santa Cruz. Art History major. Democrat. Sagittarius. Likes Ewan McGregor, Lord of the Rings, Coldplay, baseball, pirates, pina coladas, and getting caught in the rain. Dislikes the Bush Junta, Dirty Dancing, intolerance, getting up early, and public speaking. More? AIM?


Listening: The Nails - 88 Lines About 44 Women
Reading: David Sedaris - Dress Your Family in Corduroy and Denim
Quoting: "I don't think people die. I think they just go to department stores." - Andy Warhol

Waiting on a Superman
April 27, 2004 @ 12:34 a.m.

I got a job! Okay, so it's not my absolute dream job (running the arcade at the Boardwalk), but it's indoors, $7.50 an hour, and comes with a possible chance for promotion. So woot!

And I'm more than positive that I did not fail my Asian Art midterm this morning, so there's another point in the plus column.

Yeah, Steve and I haven't really talked since Friday, other than a "hi" here and there, and I've been short enough with him that he should realize something is wrong. But recognizing it and actually doing something about it are two completely different things. Especially when I don't even know what I want from him. An apology? A dramatic scene of him begging for my forgiveness? I guess what I really want is for him to change, for him to be this worthy, ideal image I had built him up to be in my mind. But if he hasn't changed by now, what makes me think he's ever really going to? If I'm still waiting for him, all these months later, maybe it's me who needs to change.

Somewhere down the line, I turned into the worst possible version of myself and all I want to do is go back.

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